To say or not to say...to say or not to say... It's been bugging me for quite some time already.. SO to say or not to say?? You can't imagine what's going through my mind right now.. dozen's and dozen's of things... AND great...the washing machine just make the ding ding sound that indicate I have to pick up the towels that i dump it not long ago...*thoughts vanished*

Anyway..I just thought.. it's only a thought, that i thought I've already met the most most superficial person in this small little tiny planet call earth which holds a country so small like a dot which is Singapore.. that I have met another one...how amazing is that?

This $%$#? really really really comes up my nerve from time to time.. like what's wrong with you? Your whole entire world is all about one stupid particular men which don't even give a damn about you.. and like "awww" you're being the nice person.. how sweet is that..whatever he post..you put --> =)...than yet in your page.. words like impossible.. depressing..

Like what are you trying to say.. you're hoping for sympathy? LIKE COME ON... Now~~ this is then call depressing... but sad to say.. you're a lousy friend that i ever..and i say ever! met.. how sad is this.. you're someone that i lurve to chat with and most importantly gossip juicy news all round the clock.. but you betray yourself for just one pathetic men that stole your heart away and never gave you back.

But he treat you like shit and u feel like you just fly a thousand miles..you don't even spare the elderly..and what makes you a person to be then? He's a parasite and you're the virus. I just can't stand the fake side of you when there is men around.. one word.. Superficial..



Recalling.. Last day of CNY... cousins and I was playing truth or dare game using my stylish cracked itouch... when it asked, what's the worst feeling you've ever felt.. and no doubt, she said "lonely". Kept me thinking right now... how depressing it is... for me to feel it right now.. but it's another way round.. I am actually comfortable with it...

They say...they feel depress when you don't have friends.. but one is more than enough to occupy you for the whole week of time.. =)... and yet they say... they can't have someone who really love them.. but.. isn't it good to don't have one? THAN! came the most commonly used lines by some typical Singaporean guys.. there's this thing call...companionship? ummm... not in my dictionary..

Oh oh!! and there's this thing call love.. which you on the TV and there's this fascinating album all about love.. or you go to the movies and there's this commercial that sings..L-O-V-E.. and worst to worst if it's February...you'll see lots and lots of commercial talking about it.. than when time goes by, everyone is so used to it.. that it is meant to be

Than everyone will be talking about love love love love and somemore love... like they know what it really means. seriously!! people~~ wake up... aren't you sick about it? those who have it.. defiantly you'll say its good.. "there's this special thing going on between you both".. like come on... is that really what you really want to say.. so basically the word "love" does not exist in my dictionary yet. I do believe in it.. but its ain't coming the way I want it to be or perhaps..

So this word lonely~~ it's so hard to define.. I may feel it sometimes.. but why nag about it when you can actually use the time to enjoy it.. freedom is power..and power is controlled by the name call you.





It really makes me wonder... all the words and all the promises that you made... Luckily its all fake.. than I wont blame myself for backing out... Now!! I don't even care if you will read this..But I hope you wont.. Cause it will make you feel like shit.. as in SHIT..that i pass out everyday and end up in the toilet bowl..AhHh relieving~~

What a nice feeling we've got here..=) So you will least expect my support from me and the others.. like never and I sincerely hope that you will fail in whatever you do.. As you are the lowest rank of mankind that I have met.. maybe not even qualified to be call men.. but a vicious animal.

But I thank you for letting me open my eyes to more adventure stuff and people too.. but you!! vicious evil little you... Hope you live in this typical island... which I already venture out of it.. I'm truly glad about it..

anyway... I am Me. Rebecca~