Today was the scariest days of my life...close friends will know..don't wanna mention it what exactly happen.. But words can explain it all... For the moment I lay down, listening to my mp3..Waiting for them to proceed, it was a feeling that no one wanted.
But I don't have the choice, or must I say..DO i have the choice?? Body trembling...plums sweating..skin turn cold..all you hear will be...It will take a few minutes and hey it's already over~The moment the needle went in...it was like..your heart stop for that moment..next thing you know, you're still breathing..
Than blades came in..before that..waiting time always kills a person..I wanted to cry out..but something pull me back~ something that is so special and so unexplainable...only one who have experience it will know...satisfaction came..sadness turn to joy..and my mind was turning round and round...can't think straight..damn, why do I get those courage from?
I'm always in my deepest thought. One that never says her true self. But it ended with a kiss that is so hot. But doubt is all I see. I wish to be, but I won't wanna be.. Prehaps it turn out the way I always thought it will be.. Will it be the same or something that will surprise me? If it's the same than..life turn grey..colors turn dark..sky seems so blue but in your heart its redness that you feel. Words that contains millions of conclusion.